I almost sat out this week on 52 Photos Project, the prompt being My Reflection. I have limited patience with what I think of as naval gazing (I know I am in the vast minority thinking that Eat, Pray, Love & that ilk are overrated. I feel mean saying it, but on the other hand if a person is going to put this monologue out there, some dissension is to be expected.
We are reading Traveling With Pomegranates for bookclub this month & I am having the same kind of problems (I am sorry you are depressed when you know you have so much to live for & feel guilty & ashamed about being depressed but I am just not all that interested). My attitude towards introspection probably is not helping here. I have been accused of being MASCULINE in my views about those things (that's right I said it); I sort of wonder if depression & fear & boredom are all different approaches to the same paralyzing state of mind & a certain amount of "snap out of it" is required on the part of the beholder.
Yea, yea depression is chemical & needs to be dealt with like a disease, because t is a disease. But there is almost no cure of any disease that is aided by watching the world go by & not getting involved (OKay, maybe addiction, but I honestly cannot think of any other right now & I think we can agree getting involved with the world & avoiding what you are addicted to is what addiction cures are all about).
Next I am bogged down with the whole not getting as much out of it as you might if you were not depressed being a first world problem. Maybe this book will dissolve my prejudices....but not so far. My other lack of enthusiasm re: My Reflection is I have been trying not to stage anything, photographically & let each 52 Photos Project photo happen in the now (yep, I said that too). There is no natural occurring moment now when I might take a picture of myself (my passport is unused but up-to-date). I barely look at myself (no this is not self loathing, I'm just busy).
When in doubt, go semantic. In addition to being an image or counterpart, a reflection is also a meditation. Meditation I understand (if that seems in conflict to my lack of introspection let me remind you that meditation begins with nothing. I am a big fan of things about nothing).
I give you my reflection, in that other sense of the word:
Last summer when my little dog died, M****** gave me this rose "white pet" & we planted it near the door to the greenhouse (she is buried under stepping stones at the front). It has been doing well, pretty, unremarkable. There have been only a couple of blossoms
Enter winter. It has been below freezing most nights this week (hey, I live in Florida, this is not usual). I cover all the roses overnight & uncover them in the morning. Most afternoons I snip a little shaggy rose.
I have a suspicion it being banked by the greenhouse that is creating this little winter-free oasis. I have been reflecting on it all week.
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